Jul 28 2007
No backbone
Has a hectic yesterday, didn’t serve dinner till 8:25, even without tennis. Kind of weird, :). Andy called for tennis as soon as my last bit was down the tube, ok, ok … as I was trying to sort out which direction I need to turn tomorrow morning, my lower back snapped. For few seconds, feeling like an hour, I struggled with the sudden and excruciating pain before I hit the floor. Golfer said stress n pressure does that to me. What stress, I got no job, no goal. I always thought that I shrive under pressure and loving it. It took me a long long time to craw (cound’t use others help at all) into the bathtub which relaxed me a little, then to bed. What an ordeal. This morning woke up, still in pain. The most comforting thing was when kids woke up, they all came into my room 朝圣. King held me hand in his thick and big palm and chatted, putting on music, .. and Pumpkin cooked dumplings for me. Golfer left for golf, so they were fussing around me.. must be the side affect of all those yelling, beating and neglecting, :). It’s weired to be in bed at this hour, watching the day gone by horizontally! Don’t understand the tradition that mothers would want to have breakfast in bed on Mother’s Day. When they wake up on weekends, I’m either returned from swimming or tennis, so I was never served bfk in bed. And certainly not looking forward to that.
I just called Dr. Yan, she said, ”oh .. then have someone carry you here …” thought about the skinned dead pig being carried on a board, :)). Now I’m waiting for Golfer to get home, drive me there, to suffer another round of excruciating pain.